​I am standing Here and Now

Not There and Then once more...

The Circles leave us overwhelmed

And stranded like before...

When we argue,
the ground gives way.
We circle old lands
until the start is lost.
The past is hauled in
to prove its case,
and understanding
never even takes place.
You call me too much,
too sensitive,
too meek,
to act like a a man -
for saying what hurts.
Affection warms,
then wanes...
I apologise
​where I was wounded,
and
what I ask for is answered by
absence...

​What's going on inside your mind
I know love is there
I know bitterness is there
And I know they can't exist together
Love conquers all, they say
But hurt is hard to forget.
When quarrels bring up these
Waves like a tsunami wipe the
Love away.
Time will heal all, they say
But hurt is hard to forgive.
When the slight shimmer of a smile
Wipes away all the fear and love
Draws in.
Keep breathing, they say
Draw in and Let out.
Draw in love and let out fear.
Onward and upward, they say
Inward and outward, they say
Just be, they say...
Be, they say...

​Although I am probably one of the last generations that will
never have grown up without the internet
and having written in a diary and learnt
history from a book.
Imagine all that propaganda that was fed to us
through books that cannot be transformed and transcribed
anymore
by way of brainwashing are minds
because the
Internet is real time
AI is real time
And now we are in a new time
of revolution
of momentum
where we cannot
reconstruct the history
we can ask or believe our leaders
but we cannot subscribe
to what the technocracy wants us to
believe
we see history in the making right now
where
technocrats and leaders are coming together
trying to make
us conform
to mis-history
Now there is a revolution
Now is the changing of the guard
We are in a time of change and
Flux.